Stained Glass

in a catholic church

 

on a sunday when

her parents came

in separate cars to pray

 

she flitted about     

and danced despite

a reprimanding stare

from aisle to aisle 

 

and wandered back and forth

seen and unseen

in the gulf between them

 

until they from their separate rows

genuflected and drove away     

mother in the family van      

daddy in the station car

 

each thinking she

was with the other

 

and she at last

being a thing so small

knowing she was left alone

inside the granite walls

 

her bunny underneath her arm

its ears curled down

 

the last mass of the day complete

and all the lights inside put out

with nothing left to save the dark

except the blinking candle lamps

and the blue light spilling from the sky

through the arcs of colored window glass

 

the brown-skinned priest

whose sermon she could hardly hear

or understand the words

had closed the alabaster door

of the tabernacle

and locked the sanctuary’s door

with a silver key

tucked beneath his waist

and retired to who knows where

 

and gazing from behind the nearest pew

at candles side by side in cups of red and blue

with intermittent wicks of fire

she wonders for a moment what to do

 

then looks again from here to there

and back again

and seeing no one there

she sucks her thumb

and hugs her bunny tight

and does not speak or dare

a tear or smile

 

but holds the cares

that come from being small

and left alone at such an age

in the same way she holds

the aging rabbit at her breast

and speaks in whispers tender words

that hang about the air

like echoes of the echoes of an angel’s prayer

 

her hair a halo in the falling light

that filters in from windows that ascend

thirty feet up or more

and paint the sunday light of may

in every hue and tint

on the oak benches

and marble floors

 

she dances in the quiet

like a candle flame come loose

from atop the wax

and crosses her hands as if to pray

and bows before a statue

that seems to smile

and pirouettes before another

that seems to stare

and plays a game

of hide and seek

in the mottled shadows

of the church

 

with no one there

 

and after the footfalls

of her hurried steps

have stopped and left

the lapsing moments

in the empty space

to the silent carvings

on the walls

 

she curls up in

a corner of the church

beneath a stained-glass window

that depicts the mystery of creation

 

and sleeps a sleep

beyond the reach of dreams

 

as the last rays of sunlight

setting through the mystery

 

touch her first communion

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